The Final Chapter

All things are possible, but not all things are beneficial. Stop telling God what you need, for He knows far better than you do what the heart longs for and what it really desires. I am constantly praying and being told, "Wait"- "no, not yet"- "you are not ready for what you ask Me for". I have absolutely no idea what the future holds now, only that terrible feeling of time getting away from me, of hands on the clock ticking away, questions asked and unanswered, a heart that longs but barely even understands the longing. Will there be time for a future for me, for a wife and family, to live an upright life? Again, "wait- all in My time", then silence. Nothing more to be said, I suppose. The plan has already been sketched in His library, of course. The problem is I want to turn quickly to the last page and see how it all ends sometimes . . . sometimes.