Doctor's Visit

The closer I try to get to the God, the more I find Him opening my eyes to things about myself that I'd really rather not see, terrible things: jealousy, anger, selfishness, lazy, back-biting, self-centered, arrogant, double-minded, distrusting, prideful . . . a myriad of very bad qualities lurking just beneath the surface, sometimes excellently concealed and hidden- even from myself. The point in showing me these things is not to bring me down, but rather for me to know how desperate my case is without Him. Make no mistake, none of us are without sin, but we are in a great deal better situation if we know the truth than proceeding on with a lie. The man who thinks he's alright will never go to the doctor, even if it's the only thing that can save his life. Better to find out all the problems and deal with them, then let the healing begin. The Father can turn jealousy to trust, anger to peace, selfishness to self sacrifice, pridefulness to pure holiness- but first we must realize we are sick.