Simple Surrender

Sometimes we must simply drop the rope, kneel down and believe. The game of tug of war we play with ourselves gets old after a time and there are no answers when our entire life is spent questioning. I spent the longest time (even as a "believer") recently questioning everything, as if I would somehow find an answer with my own limited understanding. It came to me that the more I questioned, the less I seemed to know, kind of like in a multiple choice test where you originally had the right answer but didn't trust it enough, so you kept over analyzing and changing your answers. The time comes when you must lay down your questions as you would lay down your weapons in a battle that could never possibly be won. In this case it turns out that in our loss we are victorious. In finally losing and accepting defeat, we now have the possibility of winning- finally to surrender to simple, unfettered, humble and wonderful belief.