Thousands of Ways

What an interesting thing it is finding yourself in love with someone- a person who is now your best friend, lover, soulmate, confidante, spiritual partner, a virtual blessing sent straight from the heavens- and it all seems so easy. All the things the poets have written about for centuries. My heart literally feels like it has been set free after being covered in dust and neglect for 39 years. I want to help others, I smile more, my prayers and writings are more alive, and I am finally, at long last, not demanding to have this person: I am simply enjoying the fact that they are in my life. I'm sitting on the side of a hill, the wind rushing over my face, and I am in awe. Forgive me for being overly romantic or over the top sometimes- it all just seems so brand new. Sometimes, I have to stop and catch my breath. How could he have ever blessed a person like me so much? But then, He does it every day in a thousand different ways. The only difference is that now, finally, my eyes can see so clearly. Blessings to all~

Forgotten Wishes

Do not worry. Sometimes you must simply accept a blessing as it is and try not to want more for a while. He will give us all that we need in His own time. I'm slowly discovering that the more I turn it over to Him- granting His wishes and enjoying what He has given me- the more I am being prepared for what is coming next. I also am finding that I am no longer robbing my own joy. Maybe He can only help us when we finally place what we most want on the back burner and get on with life. Only then have we turned loose of it enough that He can finally begin working on it. One never knows . . .

Sweet Surrender

Last night I wrestled with God, and I lost. He had been trying to take something from my hands- something I wanted Him to help me with, but I just wouldn't let it go. Well, after fussing, fighting, fuming, shouting to have my own way and clutching tooth and nail at the thing I asked Him to fix, I finally dropped and released it. It's funny how we cling to things out of fear thinking that it will make us have more control over the situation- when in fact we end up having less. I sat down and watched Him take it away, knowing it was now completely out of my hands. Did I make the right decision? Did I have any choice at all? No real answers as of yet. I only know that my dilemma is now in the best of all possible hands. My heart, at least for now, is somewhat at peace. Amy, I love you with all my heart, and I will wait forever for you~